Invisible Words
My feelings are hurt
From something nobody said
Pretending you did so I can be mad
Predicting it now so I don’t hurt then
Relieving the false moments in my head
I know you wouldn’t say that to me
But maybe you would jokingly
You don’t know what I’ve endured
The pain and loneliness of not being heard
The days I watched you all
While I felt so very small
Something forgotten
A voice lost in the wind
I bet that’s your reason for being okay with it
It’s not fair to me you know
You didn’t see the nights where I stayed awake with silent tears in my eyes
You didn’t see the thoughts in my head
You didn’t see how badly I wanted to be friends
You didn’t notice when I pulled away because I lied and said everything was okay
You didn’t notice me move on to him because you didn’t like me enough to put effort in
But now the scars you gave me cut right to the bone because sometimes you still make me feel sad and alone